The Tunnel's End - Part I

Picturing the first time
I saw you
From a distance
And you looked
Up at me with the most beautiful
Dark brown eyes
And threw me
The sweetest smile to date
And right then
I lost myself
I lost myself in you completely
But you weren't ready
You didn't even know I was married
I went straight home & divorced my wife
Sold my children to the highest bidder
And freed myself for you
But you weren't ready
So I picked up the kids
Took back my wife
And went on living the life I knew
I could never make work
And any chance I got
I saw you
Sinfully
Because no matter what we did
Just sitting in Central Park
Together
Or walking with you
And your girlfriend
It didn't matter
I wanted you
And you knew it
And you wanted me too
And eventually
And slowly
You began to tell
Me
But I already knew, inside
I felt you
Your love
For me
And you kept on telling me how much
You loved me
And you gave me the courage
To leave my wife again
To divorce all I'd lived
And worked for
Before everything
Had gone
Wrong
And, even when I asked
If you would take
My love
If I gave it to you
Again you weren't ready
Not because you didn't love me
But because your life
Was still not free
To be given away
Completely
The way you knew
We'd have to be
And you explained this to me
Without knowing my other side
My life, falling apart
And finally the divorce
Lasted two years
And cost us our last child
But I left nothing
To chance with you
So I thought
Hired you as my attorney, my counselor
And had you
As my friend
And of course I told you
Everything
Every stage and detail
Of my failed life
Even things most would not share
I could never hide from you
And I didn't
Instead we made
Our time
What time we could find
And I was begging to see
The tunnel's end
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